Bone Marrow Cancer (M.J's testimony)

Dear Dr. Batmanghelidj,

In November 1988, I was diagnosed with bone marrow cancer and was told that my condition was terminal.  For twelve (12) years, I did not receive any type of chemotherapy.

Doctors do not understand how I can live so long with terminal cancer.  most patients with this type of cancer normally live 3 to 6 years, which was the life expectancy they gave me.  They cannot understand why I do not have holes in my bones by now.

On August 4, 2000, I was taken to Parkway Medical Center's ER in the following condition:

1. Unconscious

2. Respiratory failure

3. Fever, temperature 104.8

4. Heartbeat was 222 beats per minute.

5. Blood pressure 200 / 130

6. Pneumonia

7. Bacterial meningitis (inflammation of the spinal cord and the lining of the brain)

8. Blood was sludge

9. Hemorrhaging from the nose

10.Multiple myeloma (bone cancer)

11. Zero immune system (due to bone cancer)

That same week it was reported on television that two healthy young men ages 17 and 21 died of meningitis.  The doctors said that if I had arrived at the hospital two hours later I would have been dead upon arrival.  bacterial meningitis is the worst kind of meningitis a person can contract.

I was in ICU for ten days, unconscious and on a ventilator. The doctors did not thin I was going to live.  The primary-care physician informed my family that I might need a tracheotomy, having a feeding tube placed in my intestines, and be kept alive by machines. My family was informed that I might be a vegetable if and when I wake up.  The doctors said that most patients that have been unconscious and on the ventilator for the length of time I was, usually wake up brain dead.

By the grace of God, on the 11th day I woke up breathing on my own with all my faculties and a sound mind.  Today, 9 weeks later, I stand in God's amazing grace giving Him all the praise and all the glory.  I am healed, walking in divine health. I am also still drinking a gallon and half of water with 1/2 teaspoon of salt every day. thanks to your teaching.

Sincerely,
M.J.

 

And Five of Them Were Wise

"And five of them were wise, and five were foolish. 
They that were foolish took their lamps, and took no oil with them." --Matt. 25:2-3

My subject is the parable of the Wise and Foolish Virgins. "And five of them were wise, and five were foolish. They that were foolish took their lamps, and took no oil with them. But the wise took oil in their vessels with their lamps." The parable teaches that true prayer means preparation.

Jesus Christ said, "And all things, whatsoever ye shall ask in prayer, believing, ye shall receive" (Math. 21:22). "Therefore I say unto you, what things soever ye desire, when ye pray, believe that ye receive them, and ye shall have them" (Mark 11:24). In this parable he shows that only those who have prepared for their good (thereby showing active faith) will bring the manifestation to pass.

We might paraphrase the scriptures and say: When ye pray believe ye have it. When ye pray ACT as if you have already received.

Armchair faith or rocking chair faith, will never move mountains. In the armchair, in the silence, or meditation, you are filled with the wonder of this Truth, and feel that your faith will never waver. You know that The Lord is your Shepherd, you shall never want.

You feel that your God of Plenty will wipe out all burdens of debt or limitations. Then you leave your armchair and step out into the arena of Life. It is only what you do in the arena that counts.

I will you give you an illustration showing how the law works; for faith without action is dead.

A man, one of my students, had a great desire to go abroad. He took the statement: I give thanks for my divinely designed trip, divinely financed, under grace, in a perfect way. He had very little money, but knowing the law of preparation, he bought a trunk. It was a very gay and happy trunk with a big red band around its waist. Whenever he looked at it it gave him a realization of a trip.

One day he seemed to feel his room moving. He felt the motion of a ship. He went to the window to breathe the fresh air, and it smelt like the aroma of the docks. With his inner ear he heard the shriek of a sea-gull and the creaking of the gangplank. The trunk had commenced to work. It had put him in the vibration of his trip. Soon after that, a large sum of money came to him and he took the trip. He said afterwards that it was perfect in every detail.

In the arena of Life we must keep ourselves tuned-up to concert pitch.

Are we acting from motives of fear or faith? Watch your motives with all diligence, for out of them are the issues of life.

If your problem is a financial one (and it usually is) you must know how to wind yourself up financially, and keep wound up by always acting your faith. The material attitude towards money is to trust in your salary, your income and investments, which can shrink over night.

The spiritual attitude toward money is to trust in God for your supply. To keep your possessions, always realize that they are God in manifestation. "What God has given cannot be diminished," then if one door shuts another door, immediately opens.

Never voice lack or limitation for "by your words your are condemned." You combine with what you notice, and if you are always noticing failure and hard times, you will combine with failure and hard times.

You must form the habit of living in the fourth dimension, "The World of the Wondrous." It is the world where you do not judge by appearances.

You have trained your inner eye to see through failure into success, to see through sickness into health to see through limitation into plenty. I will give you the land which you though seeth."

The man who achieves success has the fixed idea of success. If it is founded on a rock of truth and rightness it will stand. If not, it is built upon sand and washed into the sea, returning to its native nothingness.

Only divine ideas can endure. Evil destroys itself, for it is a cross current against universal order, and the way of the transgressor is hard.

"They that were foolish took their lamps, and took no oil with them. But the wise took oil in their vessels with their lamps."

The lamp symbolizes man's consciousness. The oil is what brings Light or understanding.

"While the bridegroom tarried, they all slumbered and slept. And at midnight there was a cry made. Behold, the bridegroom cometh; go ye out to meet him. Then all those virgins arose, and trimmed their lamps. And the foolish said unto the wise, Give us your oil; for our lamps are gone out."

The foolish virgins were without wisdom or understanding, which is oil for the consciousness, and when

they were confronted with a serious situation, they had no way of handling it.

And when they said to the wise "give us of your oil," the wise answered saying, "Not so; lest there be not enough for us and you: but go ye rather to them that sell, and buy for yourselves."

That means that the foolish virgins could not receive more than was in their consciousness, or what they were vibrating to.

The man received the trip because it was in his consciousness, as a reality. He believed that he had already received. As he prepared for the trip he was taking oil for his lamps. With realization comes manifestation.

The law of preparation works both ways. If you prepare for what you fear or don't want, you begin to attract it. David said, "The thing I feared has come upon me." We hear people say, "I must put away money in case of illness." They are deliberately preparing to be ill. Or, "I'm saving for a rainy day." The rainy day is sure to come, at a most inconvenient time.

The divine idea for every man is plenty. Your barns should be full, and your cup should flow over, but we must learn to ask aright.

For example take this statement: I call on the law of accumulation. My supply comes from God, and now pours in and piles up, under grace.

This statement does not give any picture of stint or saving or sickness. It gives a fourth dimensional feeling of abundance, leaving the channels to Infinite Intelligence.

Every day you must make a choice, will you be wise or foolish? Will you prepare for your good?

Will you take the giant swing into faith? Or serve doubt and fear and bring no oil for your lamps?

"And while they went to buy, the bridegroom came; and they that were ready went in with him to the marriage: and the door was shut. Afterward came also the other virgins, saying, Lord, Lord, open to us. But he answered and said, Verily I say unto you, I know you not."

You may feel that the foolish virgins paid very dearly for neglecting to bring oil for their lamps, but we are dealing with the law of Karma (or the law of come back). It has been called the "judgment day," which people usually associate with the end of the world.

Your judgment day comes, they say, in sevens - seven hours, seven days, seven weeks, seven months, or seven years. It might even come in seven minutes. Then you pay some Karmic debt; the price for having violated spiritual law. 

You failed to trust God, you took no oil for your lamps.

Every day examine your consciousness and see just what your are preparing for. You are fearful of lack and hang on to every cent, thereby attracting more lack. Use what you have with wisdom and it opens the way for more to come to you.

In my book, "Your Word Is Your Wand," I tell about the Magic Purse. In the Arabian Nights they tell the story of a man who had a Magic Purse. As money went out, immediately money appeared in it again.

So I made the Statement: My supply comes from God - I have the magic purse of the spirit. It can never be depleted. As money goes out, immediately money comes in. It is always crammed, jammed with abundance, under grace, in perfect ways.

This brings a vivid picture to mind: You are drawing on the bank of the imagination.

A woman who did not have much money was afraid to pay any bills and see her bank account dwindle. It came to her with great conviction: "I have the magic purse of the spirit. It can never be depleted. As money goes out, immediately, money comes in." She fearlessly paid her bills, and several large cheques came to her that she did not expect.

"Watch and pray lest ye enter into the temptation" of preparing for something destructive instead of something constructive.


I knew a woman who told me she always kept a long crepe veil handy in case of funerals. I said to her, "You are a menace to your relatives, and are preparing to hurry them all off, so that you can wear the veil." She destroyed it.

Another woman who had no money decided to send her two daughters to college. Her husband scorned the idea and said, "Who will pay their tuition? I have no money for it." She replied, "I know some unforeseen good will come to us." She kept on preparing her daughters for college. Her husband laughed heartily and told all their friends that his wife was sending the girls to college on "some unforeseen good." A rich relative suddenly sent her a large sum of money. "Some unforeseen good" did arrive, for she had shown active faith. I asked what she had said to her husband when the cheque arrived. She replied, "Oh, I never antagonize George by telling him I am in the right."

So prepare for your "unforeseen good." Let every thought and every act express your unwavering faith.

Every event in your life is a crystallized idea.

Something you have invited through either fear or faith. Something you have prepared for.

So let us be wise and bring oil for our lamps - and when we least expect it, we shall reap the fruits of our faith.

My lamps are now filled with the oil of faith and fulfillment.

IN NOTHING BE ANXIOUS

All through the Bible we are told not to be anxious, not to be fearful, not to hoard or save, because an invincible, invisible power is at man's command to supply every need. But we were told that it would not work unless we believed in it. "If thou canst believe in this God Power, all things are then possible." It is difficult for man to believe in this power, because he has had a right training in unbelief. "I'll believe only what I can see," was supposed to be the height of wisdom. We lived in a world of externals, where we thought everything "just happened." We did not know that back of every happening was a cause, that we, ourselves, started in motion the machinery which produced good or evil in our pathway.

We did not know that words and thoughts are a form of dynamite, and should be handled carefully, with wisdom and understanding. We hurled out into the ethers, words of anger, resentment or self-pity, then wondered why life was so hard.

Why not experiment with faith; trust this invisible God-Power and "In nothing be anxious," but "In everything by prayer and thanksgiving, let your requests be made known unto God." Could anything be more simple or direct? Anxiety and habit have become habits. The old thought- forms you have built up in the subconscious, hang on like barnacles on an ocean liner. But the ocean liner is put in drydock once in a while to have the barnacles scraped off, so, your mental barnacles will have to go through the same process. The drydock is a big situation.

I know of a woman who had been a coward all her life, particulary about finances. She worried all the time about money. She came into this Truth, realized how she had limited herself, and suddenly made the giant swing into faith. She commenced to trust God and not the external for her supply. She followed her intuitive leads about spending. If any of her clothes made her feel poor, she would discard them at once, getting something new to make her feel rich. She had very little money, but gave one-tenth (a tithe) to good works. She was winding herself up into a new vibration. Very soon, things commenced to change on the external. A woman, on whom she had no claim, who was merely an old friend of her family, left her a thousand dollars. A few months later, another thousand came in. Then a big door opened for her supply and many thousands came in. She had tapped her invisible supply from the Bank of the Universal. She had looked to God only for her supply, then the channels opened. The point I am bringing out is, that she had lost all anxiety about money matters. She had established in her subconscious, the firm conviction, that her supply came from God, and it never failed.

Man is an instrument for Infinite Intelligence to work through. It will express through him as success, happiness, abundance, health and perfect self-expression, unless fear and anxiety make a short circuit.

If we want examples of fearless faith, go to the circus! The circus people perform seemingly impossible feats because they think they can, and see themselves doing it. Faith means that you can see yourself receiving all these things that you desire. "I will give to thee the land that thou seest."

You can never do a thing you cannot see yourself doing, or fill a place you cannot see yourself filling—not visualizing, making a mental picture (this is a mental process and often brings wrong and limited results); it must be a spiritual realization, a feeling that you are already there; be in its vibration.

I was very much impressed with the story of a great football player who was the greatest all- round athlete in the world, who trained in a hammock. One day he was lying there drowsing in the sun and the trainer came up to him with tears streaming down his face and said; "Jim, for the love of Mike and your country, won't you get up and out of that hammock and do something?" Jim opened one eye and said; "I was just thinking about that. I was going to send for you." "Good," said the trainer. "What do you want me to do?" "First," said Jim, "I want you to mark off twenty- five feet there on the ground." The trainer did so. "Then what?" said the trainer. "That's all," said Jim, and he closed his eyes and swung happily. After at least five minutes he opened them and looked at the marks for a few seconds and then closed his eyes again. "What's the idea?" yelled the trainer. "What are you doing?" Jim looked at him reproachfully and replied: "I'm practicing the broad jump." He did all his training in a hammock: seeing himself doing the broad jump.

Without the vision my people perish, in lack and limitation. You may work very hard on the external and accomplish nothing, if you are without vision. Vision means to see clearly where you are going. To keep your eye on the goal. All men who have accomplished big things have done this.

James J. Hill, who built the Great Northern Railroad, said before a rail was laid, he heard with his inner ear the rumble of the trains and whistle of the engines. He had many obstacles to overcome, but his vision was so clear, it possessed him. One thing in his favor was that his wife believed in him. It is said that it takes two to make a dream come true.

Henry Ford, speaking of his mother-in-law said she was a fine woman, "She believed in me."

"When two of you agree, it shall be done." If you believe in yourself, others will believe in you. As you believe in yourself and the God-power within, fear and anxiety drop away. You establish the vibration of assurance. This is true of an intuitive person. Every move is made under Divine guidance and he never violates a "hunch," therefore, he is always in his right place at the right time. However, it often takes great courage to follow intuition. It takes a Viking, who is unafraid, to sail in unknown seas. Claude Bragdon says: "To live intuitively is to live fourth-dimensionally." The magic path leads you out of the land of Egypt, out of the house of bondage. It is invaluable in business.

Never submit a hunch to someone on the reasoning plane. Those who have ears to hear, let them hear their intuitive leads, and give instant obedience.

"Whatsoever thou wilt ask of God, God will give it thee." This is true of each one. But if we have not received all the blessings of life, we have neglected to ask, or have not "asked aright." The Bible is teaching spiritual law and we must study and use it from every angle in order to set the great machinery of asking and receiving in motion. Every machine must be greased and oiled to be kept in good working order. Active faith and expectancy keep the machine of asking and receiving in perfect order. The following are some of the lubricants which keep it working. "When ye pray, believe ye have it." "In nothing be anxious." "Stand ye still and see the salvation of the Lord." "Do not limit the Holy One of Israel." Realization is manifestation.

 Pray with praise and thanksgiving. Some people pray filled with anger and resentment. A woman wrote to me the other day saying: "I have just had a good talk with God and I told Him just what He ought to do about it." She was in the habit of ordering people around and looked upon God as someone she could bully into doing something for her. God is the Supreme Intelligence within each one of us and we are the channels for It to express Itself. We must be non-resistant, poised and peaceful, expecting our good to come to pass. We are the receivers, God is the Giver, and He must create His own channels. We find there is quite an art in praying aright. God must have right of way, His way, not your way. The moment you make your demand Infinite Intelligence knows the way of fulfillment. If you decide how your prayer shall be answered, you have blocked the divinely designed channel. Then you are apt to say: "I never have my prayers answered." We must acquire a technique and send out a sincere desire, which is a prayer. We are free from all clutch or anxiety when we say: "If this is according to the divine plan, we will receive it, if not, give us its equivalent." Be careful not to force anything not divinely planned.

We must know, that linked with God-power, nothing can defeat us. "God's ways are ingenious, His methods are sure."

Two of the most beautiful Psalms are the twenty-third and the one hundred and twenty-first. Both give one a feeling of absolute security and were written by a man who had experienced the working of spiritual law.

The God within protects, guides and provides when fully trusted. Most people lose what they love most through fear of loss; they take every precaution on the external, not trusting the protection to the "Eye which watches over Israel." Put whatever you love under the law of divine protection.

The most important part of demonstrating is showing fearless faith. "I will go before thee and make the crooked places straight! I will break in pieces the gates of brass and cut in sunder the bars of iron." The Bible is talking about states of consciousness. "The gates of brass" and "bars of iron," are your doubts, fears, resentments and anxieties. The gates of brass and bars of iron are of our own making and come from our own vain imaginings, a belief in evil. There is a story of a herd of wild elephants: they were corralled in an enclosure but the men had no way of keeping them in, so they dug stakes and put a rope all around the enclosure. The elephants thought they could not get out. They could have just walked over the rope and stepped out but they had the illusion that the rope kept them in. This is the way with people: doubt and fear is a rope stretched around their consciousness. It makes it impossible for them to walk out into clear thinking.

Clear vision is like a man with a compass; he knows where he is going. Let intuition be your compass and it will always get you out of the woods. Even a man without a compass, led by intuition, would find his way out of the jungle, or be able to steer a ship at sea. Intuition will tell you to walk over the rope. It is amazing how people have overlooked their most important faculty—intuition. Always on man's pathway is his message or lead. Often our leads seem trivial and silly. A person purely on the intellectual plane would dismiss them at once but the Truth student always has his spiritual ear to the spiritual ground, knowing he is receiving orders from the Infinite. The Bible speaks often of "the still small voice." It is a voice which is not an actual voice, though sometimes actual words are registered on the inner ear.

When we ask for guidance and lay aside the reasoning mind we are tapping the Universal supply of all knowledge; anything necessary for you to know will be revealed to you. Some people are naturally intuitive and are always in contact with Universal Intelligence, but by taking an affirmation we make a conscious contact. Prayer is telephoning to God, and intuition is God telephoning to you. Many people have a "busy wire" when God telephones and they don't get the message. Your wire is "busy" when you are discouraged, angry or resentful. You've heard the expression "I was so mad I couldn't see straight." We might add, "I was so mad I couldn't hear straight." Your negative emotions drown out the voice of intuition.

When you are discouraged, angry, or resentful, is the time to make a statement of Truth, in order to get out of the woods of despair and limitation, for "Whosoever calleth on the name of the Lord shall be delivered!" There is a way out — "Reveal to me the way."

We must stop planning, plotting and scheming and let Infinite Intelligence solve the problem in Its own way. God-power is subtle, silent and irresistible. It levels mountains and fills in valleys and knows no defeat! Our part is to prepare for our blessings and follow our intuitive leads.

We now give Infinite Intelligence right-of-way.

THE GLORY OF THE LORD Psalm 24

In the dictionary, I find the word glory, defined as radiance, spendour. "Mine eyes have seen the radiance of the Lord" that means the law in action. We cannot see God, for God is principle, Power, the Supreme Intelligence within us, but what we see are the proofs of God. "Prove Thou me herewith, saith the Lord of Hosts, if I will not open the windows of hearing, and pour you out a blessing, so great, there be not room enough to receive it." We prove God by directing God-power and trusting in It to do the work. Every time we get a demonstration we have proved God. If you have not received the desires of the heart, you have "asked amiss," that is, you have "not prayed aright." You receive your answer in the same way in which you sent out your demand. Your dreary desires are answered drearily, your impatient desires are long delayed or violently fulfilled.

Suppose you are resenting lack and limitation and living in poor surroundings. You say with great feeling, "I want to live in a big house, with beautiful surroundings!" Sooner or later, you may find yourself a caretaker in a big and beautiful house, but you have no share in this opulence. This idea came to me as I was passing Andrew Carnegie's house and grounds on Fifth Avenue. It was all closed and the entrance and windows boarded up. There was just one window open in the basement. This is where the caretaker lived. It was certainly a dreary picture. So ask (or wish) with praise and thanksgiving, so that you will see the glory of the law in action.

All life is vibration. You combine with what you notice, or you combine with what you vibrate to. If you are vibrating to injustice and resentment you will meet it on your pathway, at every step. You will certainly think it is a hard world and that everybody is against you. Hermes Trismegistus said several thousand years ago, "To change your mood you must change your vibrations." I make it even stronger; I say, to change your world, you must change your vibrations. Turn on a different current in your battery of thought, and you'll see the difference immediately. Suppose you have been resenting people and saying you are not appreciated. Take the statement: "God appreciates me, therefore, man appreciates me, I appreciate myself." Immediately you will meet with some recognition on the external.

You are now a master workman and your tools are your words. Be sure you are building constructively, according to the Divine Plan. Judge Troward said: "Man is a distributor of God-Power, he does not create this force." We find in Hebrews: "What is man that Thou art mindful of him? And the son of man that thou visitest him? Thou madest him a little lower than the angels; and hath crowned him with glory and honor. Thou madest him to have dominion over the works of thy hands, Thou hast put all things under his feet." Thou hast put all things under our understanding.

We are now coming into an understanding, age.

We no longer have the faith of peasants, we have understanding faith. Solomon said: "With all your getting, get understanding"; understanding of the working of Spiritual Law, so that we distribute this power within us in a constructive way.

The law of laws, is to do unto others as you would be done by; for, whatever you send out comes back and what you do to others will be done to you. So, the woman who refrains from criticizing, saves herself from criticism. Critical people are always being criticized. They are living in that vibration. They also have rheumatism, for acid thoughts produce acid in the blood, which causes pain in the joints. I read an article in the newspaper. It said a physician had had a peculiar experience with one of his patients. The woman had boils every time her mother-in-law paid her a visit. There is nothing peculiar in this, as she was boiling within (how many times we have heard people say they were in a boiling rage), so the boils appeared on her body. This does not include all mothers-in-law. I have known some very wonderful ones who have brought only peace and harmony with them. Skin trouble shows that someone has got under your skin. You have been irritated or angered. Here we see again, that man gives direction to this God-power, through himself. Vibrative to this power, all things are under his feet. "All sheep and oxen, yea the beasts of the field. The fowl of the air and the fish of the sea, whatsoever passes through the paths of the seas." What a picture of power and dominion for man!

Man has power and dominion over the elements. We should be able "to rebuke the wind and the waves." We should be able to put an end to drought. I read in the paper that the people in a certain drought district were requested not to sing, "It ain't going to rain no more." Knowing something of metaphysics, they realized the power of negative words. They felt it had something to do with the drought. We should be able to stop floods and epidemics, "For man is given power and dominion over all created things." Every time we get a demonstration we are proving our power and dominion.

We must be lifted up in consciousness for the King of Glory to come in! As we read the statement: "If thine eye be single, thy whole body shall be full of light," we seem flooded with an inner radiance. The single eye means to see good only, to be undisturbed by appearances of evil. As Jesus Christ said: "Judge not by appearances: judge righteous (right) judgment." There is an occult law of indifference. Jesus Christ knew this law. "None of these things move me." None of these things disturb me, we might say in our modern language. Selfishness and personal will bring defeat and failure. "Unless the Lord builds the house, they labor in vain who build it." The imaging faculty is a creative faculty, and your fear- pictures will appear on the external, the result of your own distorted imagination. With the single eye, man sees only the Truth. He sees through evil, knowing out of it comes good. He transmutes injustice into justice and disarms his seeming enemies by sending good will. He is now backed by unnumbered hosts of Power, for the single eye sees only victory.

We read in mythology of the Cyclops, a race of giants said to have inhabited Sicily. These giants had only one eye in the middle of the forehead. The seat of the imaging faculty is situated in the forehead (between the eyes), so these fabled giants came from this idea. You are, indeed, a giant, when you have "the single eye."

Jesus Christ, the greatest of all teachers, reiterated, "NOW is the appointed time, TODAY is the day of your salvation." A few days ago, I saw a motion picture which showed the futility of trying to live in or bring back the past. It is a French picture and is called "Life Dances On." It is the story of a woman, who, when sixteen, had gone to her first ball. She is now a widow of about thirty-five. She had married for money and had never known happiness. When burning old papers, she came across a faded dance programme. On it were the names of six men she had danced with at the ball. Each had sworn to love her all his life! As she sits with the programme in her hands the memory of the ball is pictured on the screen; a scene of loveliness, the dancers almost floating to the strains of an entrancing waltz. Her life is now empty and she decides to recover her lost youth, by finding out what had become of the men whose names were on the programme. A friend who is with her says, "You cannot recapture your lost youth; if you go back you lose the things of today." However, she goes in search of them, and with all, comes disillusion. One did not remember her at all. When she said: "Don't you remember me? I am Christine!" He replied, "Christine who?" Some of them were living sordid lives. At last she returns to the town of her girlhood, where the fifth man lived. He had become a hairdresser. He talks to her gaily of old times, while he gives her a permanent wave. He says, "I don't suppose you remember your first ball, it was right here in this town, and tonight there will be a dance in the same place. Do come with me, it will remind you of the old days!" She goes to the ball; everything looks cheap and tawdry. Unattractive, badly dressed people are on the dance floor. She requests the orchestra to play her waltz, the waltz of her lost youth! Her escort tells her the others won't like such an old-fashioned waltz. However, they play it. The contrast is too much; all her illusions have vanished. She realizes the ball she remembers never really existed the way she thought it did. It was only an illusion of the past. She could not recapture her past.

It has been said that the two robbers on the Cross stood for the robbers of time. One spoke of the past and one of the future, and Jesus Christ replied, "NOW is the appointed time, today thou shalt be with me in Paradise." In the old Sanskrit poem we are told: "Look well, therefore, to this day. Such is the salutation of the dawn." All worry and fear are robbers of time.

The occult law underlying indifference is one of the most profound, for it contains the attainment of a state of consciousness in which the outer world of sensation has no influence upon the action of the mind, and it can, therefore, be in complete at-one-ment with the Divine Mind. Most people's lives are a succession of disturbances: lack, loss, limitation, mothers-in-law, landlords, debt or injustice. This world was popularly known as a "vale of tears." People were all mixed up in their own affairs, fighting their battles and carrying their burdens. If a man judges by appearances, he finds himself in an arena most of the time. The arena of adverse conditions and facing lions of lack and limitation. "If thine eye be evil (if you are imaging adverse conditions) thy whole body shall be full of darkness. If, therefore, the light that is in thee be darkness, how great is that darkness!" The light of the body is the inner eye (or imaging faculty); if, therefore, thine eye be single, you are seeing only one power, one plan and one planner, your body and affairs will be full of Light. See yourself, daily, bathed in the Light of the Christ. This inner radiance is invincible power and dissolves anything not Divinely planned. It dissolves all appearance of disease, lack, loss or limitation. It dissolves adverse conditions, or "any weapon that is formed against you."

We have always at our command, this Light when your eye is single. We should learn to turn on this Light, with the same assurance with which we turn on the electric light. "Seek ye first the kingdom of God and His righteousness and all right things shall be added unto you." The Chinese Proverb says: "The philosopher leaves the cuff of his coat to the tailor." So, leave the plan of your life to the Divine Planner and you will find all conditions permanently perfect.

"I GIVE UNTO YOU POWER"

"I GIVE UNTO YOU POWER"

God's gift to man is power; power and dominion over all created things; his mind, his body, and affairs. All unhappiness comes from lack of power. Man imagines himself weak and the victim of circumstances, claiming that "Conditions over which he had no control" caused his defeat. Man by himself, is indeed, a victim of circumstances; but linked with God-power all things are possible.

Through a knowledge of metaphysics we are discovering how this can be done. By your word you contact this power. Then, miraculously, every burden is lifted and every battle is won. Life and death are in the power of the tongue. Watch your words with all diligence. You are continually reaping the fruits of your words. And he that overcometh and keepeth my works to the end, to him will I give power and dominion over the nations." Overcoming means to conquer all doubts, fears and negative vibrations. One man with vibrations. They would melt away like snow under the sun. Jesus Christ said: "All power is given unto me to bring heaven upon earth." Let us give thanks that this is now coming to pass— for evil is unreal and leaves no stain. This God- power is within you, your superconscious mind. It is the realm of inspiration, revelation and illumination. It is the realm of miracles and wonders. Quick and seemingly impossible changes take place for your good. A door opens where there were no doors. Supply appears from hidden and unexpected channels, for "God has weapons ye know not of."

To work with God-power you must give it right of way and still the reasoning mind. The instant you ask, Infinite Intelligence knows the way of fulfillment. Man's part is to rejoice and give thanks, and act his Faith. A very well known woman in England told of this experience: She was asking, with great feeling, for a realization of God. These words came to her "Act as though I were, and I am." It is exactly what I say, over and over again—only active Faith impresses the subconscious, and unless you impress the subconscious, there are no results.

I will now give you an example to show you just how the law works. A woman came to me whose heart's desire was her right marriage and happy home. She was very fond of a certain man, but he was a most difficult person. After having shown her every attention and devotion, he suddenly changed, and dropped out of her life. She was unhappy, resentful and discouraged. I said,perfect peace and perfect poise, filled with love and good-will, could dissolve all negative "Now this is the time to prepare for your happy home! Buy little things for it as if you hadn't a minute to spare." She became quite interested in shopping for her happy home, when all appearances were against it. "Now," I said, "you'll have to perfect yourself on the situation and become immune to all resentment and unhappiness." I gave her the statement: "I am now immune to all hurt and resentment: my poise is built upon a rock, the Christ within." I said, "When you are immune to all hurt and resentment, this man will be given you or his equivalent." It took many months, when one evening she came to see me and said, "I have only the kindest and most friendly feelings for this man. If he isn't the Divine selection I would be happy without him."

Not long after, she happened to meet the man. He was so sorry for the way he had acted. He begged her to forgive him. Not long after, they were married and a happy home came into manifestation. It had built itself around her active Faith.

Your only enemies are within yourself. The woman's enemies were "hurt" and "resentment." They are indeed "serpents and scorpions." Many lives have been wrecked by these two enemies. Linked with God-power, all opposition vanished from this woman's life. Nothing could by any means hurt her.

Think what that means, to have a life free from all unhappy experiences. It is done through making a conscious contact with God-power every instant.

Many times in the Bible, the word "power" is mentioned. "Thou shalt remember the Lord thy God, for it is He that giveth thee power to get wealth."

A person with a rich consciousness attracts riches. A person with a poor consciousness attracts poverty. I have seen people in this Truth, rise out of lack and limitation by linking with the God-power within, not depending on the external, trusting in God gives you irresistible power, for this Supreme Intelligence only, knows the Way of fulfillment. "Trust in Me and I will bring it to pass."

All our knowledge of Truth can bring us is to know that God is the only Power. One Power, one Presence, one Plan. When you have the fixed idea that there is only one Power in the universe, God-power, all appearance of evil will disappear from your world. In getting a demonstration we must acknowledge only one Power. Evil comes from man's own "vain imaginings." Withdraw all power from evil and it is powerless to hurt.

I will give you an example which shows the working of the law. I was in a restaurant with a friend who spilled something on her dress. She was sure it would leave a stain. I said, "We'll give it a treatment." I made the statement, "Evil is unreal and leaves no stain." I said, "Now, don't look, leave it to Infinite Intelligence." In about an hour we took a look and there was not the slightest stain.


What is true of a little thing is true of a big thing. You can use this statement for past misfortunes or mistakes, and somehow or other, under Grace, the effects will disappear, they will leave no stain.

Many people are using personal-power instead of God-power, which always brings unhappy reaction. Personal-power means forcing personal will. I will give the example of a woman I knew a long time ago. She married a man who worked on a newspaper drawing a comic strip. His drawings demanded a knowledge of slang, which he used on every occasion. She decided he should cultivate his mind and read the classics. They moved to a college town so that he could go to college. She insisted upon his going to college. He resisted a little at first then he grew to like it! Soon he was steeped in the classics. He wouldn't talk anything but Plato and Aristotle. He wanted the food cooked the way they cooked, and eat the simple food they ate. Her life had become a nightmare. After that, she never tried to change people. The only person to change, is yourself. As you change, all the conditions around you will change! People will change!

When you are undisturbed by a situation it falls away of its own weight. Your life is outpictured by the sum-total of your subconscious beliefs. Wherever you go, you take these conditions with you.

"I am strong in the Lord and the Power of His might."

"I am backed by unnumbered hosts of power." Power means dominion and dominion means control. Man controls conditions by a knowledge of Spiritual law. Suppose your problem is lack or limitation. Your urgent need is supply. Link with this God-power within, and give thanks for your immediate supply. If you are too close to the situation, if you are filled with doubts and fears, go to a Practitioner for help, someone to see clearly for you.

A man told me while at a Truth Centre at Pittsburgh he heard people talking about me and he said, "Who in heck is Florence Scovel Shinn?" Someone replied, "Oh, she wrote The Game of Life, if you write to her she'll get you a miracle." He said he promptly wrote to me and got a demonstration. Jesus Christ said, "When two of you agree, it shall be done." Do not hesitate to ask for help if you cannot see clearly your good. Jesus Christ saw clearly for the people he healed. He did not tell them to heal themselves. Of course, you can reach the state where you do not need any help, when you have the fixed idea that God's Power is the only Power and that God's Plan is the only Plan.

We cannot take blessings from Infinite Intelligence, they must be given us. Man's part is to be a grateful receiver. "Behold I give unto you power to tread on serpents and scorpions and over all the power of the enemy, and nothing shall by any means hurt you." "Thou madest him to have dominion over the works of thy hands and hath put all things under his feet. All sheep and oxen, yea and the beasts of the fields." This is God's idea of man, but man's idea of himself is one of limitation and failure. It is only in a big moment, that man seems to rise to his power and dominion.

It isn't until we face a situation of lack, that we suddenly express the power which has already been given us. I have known people who are usually nervous and anxious to become poised and powerful when confronted by a big situation.

"Hear, Oh! Israel! Ye have no need to fight, stand ye still and see the salvation of the Lord." People often ask, "What does it mean to stand still, to do nothing at all?" "Standing still" means to keep your poise. I said to a man who was tense and anxious, "Take it easy and see the salvation of the Lord." He replied, "My; that has helped me a lot." Most people are trying too hard. They carry their burdens and fight their battles and are, therefore, always in a turmoil and never get, what we call, a demonstration. Stand aside, and see the salvation of the Lord. We might paraphrase the Scriptures and say, "Hear! 0! Israel, you will never win this battle by fighting—leave it entirely to Me, and it will be given you."

Following the magic path of intuition you escape all complications and friction, and make a beeline to your demonstration. Remember we are told not to despise the day of small things. It is a great mistake to think that anything is unimportant. I was going to a shop to buy two articles. In my vicinity are two shops, an expensive one and one where all the things are a little cheaper, but the articles are exactly the same. The reasoning mind said, "Go to the cheaper place" but intuition said, "Go to the expensive place." Of course, I followed that magic path. I told the clerk what I wanted. He said: "The two articles are today sold for the price of one, because they are advertising one of the products." So intuition led me to the right place and price. The difference in price was only about fifty cents but intuition always looks after our interests. If I had been trying to get something cheap, I would have gone to the other shop and paid twice as much. Learn from the little things, and you will be ready to handle the big things.

Studying closely the Scriptures, we find, God's gift to man is power. The things and conditions automatically follow. God gives man power to get well. He gives man power over the elements. He gives man power to heal sickness, and to cast out devils.

"They that wait upon the Lord shall renew their strength. They shall mount up with wings and eagles, they shall run and not be weary, and shall walk and not faint."

Let us realize that this invincible power is within reach of all. "Whosoever calleth on the name of the Lord, shall be delivered!" So we find the Word links man with omnipotence. This Supreme Intelligence is more than equal to lifting every burden and fighting every battle.

All power is given unto me to bring my heaven upon my earth.

I Am Only Giving Them The Water

Chapter Seven

The Living Waters of Japan's Ancient Magnetic Mountain

Throughout the history of religions and legends, two things are always held sacred - mountain and water.

The mountain is home to the gods of mythology, and where Abraham, Moses and Mohammed sought and found God. 
Water has purified and healed. It is the eternal symbol of life. 

Destiny Leads Me to a Tofu Restaurant in Kyoto And My Search is Over

  On a cold day one year after I returned to Japan, I decided to visit Kyoto.  Kyoto is one of the most popular Japanese tourist attractions.  It was the home of ancient Emperors and is still one of the most beautiful cities in the world.  I went to Kyoto for no particular reason, other than to relax and enjoy.

  The cold wind had set in under my skin, and hot tea and tofu was what I needed to warm up. Being unfamiliar with Kyoto, I asked the taxi driver, " I am from Osaka and have just arrived. Can you take me to a restaurant that has the best tofu?"

"I know just the place! " he said.

  As we were driving along I expected him to drive me to an expensive restaurant in one of the more exclusive parts of Kyoto.  But when he stopped in front a small building that resembles a run down house rather than a good restaurant, I asked him if he had misunderstood my request.  I had an unpleasant feeling when I looked at the old structure.  I saw in the backseat, hesitating to get out of the taxicab. 

 "Here we are! This is the restaurant you wanted !" the cab driver said.

  "Are you sure they have good tofu here? This doesn't look very promising to me!"

 "You said you wanted good tofu and this is by far the best tofu in all of Kyoto, and maybe all of Japan!  Every taxi driver knows about this place and they would have brought you here as well.  I know this place is not fancy, but if you really want the 'best' tofu, I have brought you to the right place." 

"What makes the tofu so special here?  What makes it different from the other good restaurants in Kyoto?"  I asked.

"I have no idea. I just know it is the best.  Ask anyone in Kyoto.  But if you prefer, I can take you to another restaurant if that makes you feel more comfortable," he offered. 

"No, you don't have to take me to another place.  You have my curiosity now by your high recommendation , and I would very much like to try the tofu here and taste the 'best' tofu in Kyoto!" 

I paid the cab driver and went into the small restaurant. i was very surprised to see that the place was packed. I would have an hour wait before I was seated.  After the waitress guided me to my table, I scanned the menu she has given me.  There was nothing special about the small menu.  Everything on the menu was tofu cooked in various ways. I ordered some tofu and waited patiently for my food. 

  When I looked at the tofu on my plate I immediately noticed that the tofu looked shiny and smooth like a silk cloth.  I had never seen such a good-looking tofu before.  I hesitated for a moment before I put the first bite into my mouth. From the looks of this tofu,perhaps the cab driver knew what he was talking about!  But the proof would be in the taste. I closed my eyes and concentrated on mmy first bite.

  "Wonderful" I shouted. "Tis is wonderful tofu!"

  I looked around the restaurant to see if anyone was looking at me and thinking I was crazy.  I found myself yelling again with delight after my first mouthful of the most delicious taste I had ever experienced . i could not believe the silky texture and the deliciously smooth taste.  I was actually making a spectacle of myself as I kept announcing to everyone how delighted I was to taste this wonderful dish!

  My waitress had come back to my table to make sure everything was all right.
 "Excuse me, sir, is everything all right with your order?"

"Yes! Yes! This is the most delicious tofu I have ever tasted!  I need to talk to the owner of the restaurant !  Please tell him I would like to see him now!"

"Yes sir." The waitress looked a little bewildered, but left the room to find the owner. In a few moments a concerned looking man approached my table.
"Yes, I am the owner of this restaurant.  Is there a problem here?  Are you displeased with your order?" he asked.

  "No! No! There is not a problem with my food! I wanted to tell you that I have never had such a delicious tofu in all my life!  I have never seen such a beautiful texture, so silky and so smooth!  Your tofu was recommended to  me because it was the  best, but I had no idea that your tofu would be this delicious! I am delighted with the taste and I wanted to ask you how you make this tofu so special.  I know there are only a few ingredients in tofu and I'm trying to figure out what you do to make it so different from the tofu I have eaten before!"

I was obviously very excited and it was difficult for me to hold back my enthusiasm.  The restaurant owner looked at me cautiously. he did not answer me immediately because he was looking me over and no doubt wondering if there was something wrong with me.  I asked him if he could take a few minutes and sit down with me so I could explain to him who I was and why I was so interested in his tofu.  Even though the restaurant was  very busy, he kindly accepted my request and he sat down to listen.

  After introducing myself and explaining why I was so curious about the tofu, he relaxed and asked me to calm down. He said," Dr. Ohno, I see you are excited, but please calm down so I can answer your questions!  It is the water, a very special water that has made this tofu so good.  Tofu consists of 90% water ; it is not a solid substance even though many people think of it as being solid.  because the water we use is a special water with very fine qualities, our tofu is exceptional to taste!  This is not only true for tofu, but also for vegetables and fruits or even fish and meat. Anything that has water in it tastes better when the quality of the water is pure!"

"Both the ingredients and the water source for the tofu are from japan. The soy is grown with this water to make the tofu. This is why this tofu is so delicious and different!"

My head was spinning with excitement and my heart was pounding as he talked about a special water that was so pure.
"Where do you purchase this water?  Where does it come from ? This is very important that I know!" 

Again my excitement cause him to ask me to calm down. But I couldn't ; I know in my heart that I had been guided to this restaurant that day to find this water.  I was fond of tofu, but never before had I wanted tofu so much that I would ask a cab driver to recommend a good tofu restaurant to me! It seems as though I had been gently guided by some invisible force to have a craving for tofu that day so I would come here to learn about this special water.  This would be too much of a coincidence for this water no to be the water I had been searching for.  My excitement could not be contained. 

  "Dr. Ohno! Please , calm down! After  you finish your meal, we can sit somewhere quietly and I can give you more information about where this water comes from!"

  After I finished my tofu I joined him at a quiet area in the back. The waitress brought us both some tea and he proceeded to explain to me the history of this water. 

" I discovered this water through my uncle.  My uncle had been a cigarette smoker and he was suffering from lung cancer. When he was diagnosed with lung cancer, the doctor said that the only alternative he could recommend was chemotherapy. So my uncle started with chemo treatments , but the side effects were so strong that he could not bear it.  He finally asked his doctor to stop the chemotherapy.  Hos doctor told him that if he stopped the treatments, he would have no chance of surviving.  But my uncle was a stubborn man and he did not want to continue with the treatment any longer.  So finally the doctor agreed to discharge my uncle from the hospital."

  "After he left the hospital his symptoms became worse.  he had to do something to help himself, so he turned to Oriental medicine. One day a friend advised him to visit a doctor who treated end-stage cancer patients. It seemed this doctor gave his patients a special water.  After drinking the water for a period of time, their cancer would go into remission.  His friend gave him the name of the doctor and told him the hospital where he was practicing."

  "So, with nothing to lose, my uncle went to the hospital to find this doctor.  Soon after  meeting with the doctor, he was given this water. In a short time, his condition dramatically improved! His appetite, which had all but vanished , was back once again.  My uncle was able to eat and started to gain weight. The tumors on his lung began to shrink, until eventually they were gone!" 

  " I know this is a difficult story to believe, but it is true! At first it was very difficult for me to believe that my uncle was cured by drinking water! If it had not been that this happened to my own uncle, who I know very well and witnessed his healing, I know I would not trust someone who would tell me such a far-fetched story.  Six months after my uncle started drinking the water his lung cancer was in remission! Amazingly,Dr. Ohno, this is a true story."

  " Tell me, Dr. Ohno, what do you think about this story?"

 I told him that I believed what he told me was possible and I trusted that this water could have special properties that aided in the healing of his uncle's lung cancer.  He was happy to see that I believed his story.  He went on to say, "I have tried to explain this story to many of my friends, and even though they know me very well, they find it difficult to believe me.  In order to further prove this to myself, I decided to drink this water, because I had hypertension and diabetes.  I thought that if the water could help my uncle with lung cancer, perhaps it could help with my health problem as well.  Every day, I had to take medication  for my high blood pressure, and insulin for my diabetes. Shortly after I started to drink this magnetized water, my blood pressure dropped from 180/120 to 120/78 !  My glucose level dropped from 300 to where it is now at 120 ! I will always drink a bottle of this water every day to maintain my health."

  " I have also discovered that I experience more energy that I did before ! It used to be difficult for me to get up in the morning because I was always so tired.  Now, even if I go to bed after midnight, I wake up in the morning between 5-6 AM feeling refreshed. 

After taking a break and sipping some  more tea, the restaurant owner continued with his story.

 "After my uncle and I had such a good experience with this water, I thought of the idea of using this water for cooking in my restaurant. I knew that because tofu was made up of 90% water, that the purity of the water would make a big difference in the taste and the quality of the tofu.  So, I started using the water in my restaurant and I never said anything to anyone about it.  But within a short period of time, I had a great increase in business. People from all over have come to taste our tofu!"

His story intrigued me and I wanted to learn more about the water. I also wanted to meet the doctor who was administering the water to his cancer patients.  I asked him, " Where can I go to meet this doctor and find out more about this special water?"

  "The doctor you want to talk to is at Shibata Hospital in Okayama. His name is Dr. Jinro Itami. I can give you directions how to get there."

Dr. Itami, Shibata Hospital, Okayama, Japan.

  After I returned home, I scheduled an appointment to see Dr. Itami.  I made the three-hour trip from Osaka to Okayama and the Shibata Hospital.  Even though the hospital looked humble and small, I felt a special energy from the building and from the staff when I walked inside.  I waited for 10 minutes and Dr. Itami, a man about 50 years old ( Year 2000), came over and introduced himself. His voice was soft and caring, and his eyes were kind and compassionate. I felt immediately that I could trust him. And this proved to be true.  He was generous with his time during that first visit, as he took time out of his busy schedule from seeing his patients.

  "Welcome, Dr. Ohno!  Welcome to Shibata Hospital ! I am so glad to meet you!  I have been looking forward to meeting you, especially after our conversation about the water over the phone. There aren't many doctors who understand the importance of water and how water affects our body!"

I was impressed with Dr. Itami and his humility from our first conversation. When he discussed his patients and how they have been healed, he never indicated to me that he was taking the credit. he always gave the credit to the water.  He had said, " I am not curing the patients, it is the water that is making the difference. I am only giving them the water."

  Now that I had met him in person, I was able to confirm that he was indeed a sweet and modest man.  His attitude was very different from the typical Japanese doctors I was used to associating with, who were generally arrogant.  The more I talked with him, the more I liked him.  he was a true humanitarian and meeting him inspired me.  I was now even more excited about discussing the water with him. 

  "Please tell me about this special water, Dr. Itami. How long have you been using it with your patients?"

"I have been using the water with end-stage cancer patients now for 10 years (i.e.since 1990) , Dr.Ohno. I have kept records since I started giving water to my cancer patients!"

  "What can you tell me about your findings?"

""Most of the patients visit me at this hospital after they have moved into the end stages of cancer.  Most of these patients have already gone through radiation, surgery, chemotherapy, and immunotherapy. many patients have been to several doctors, who offered them new 'cures' for cancer. Most of these patients have lost trust in their doctors because none of them seemed to improve.  Their hopes have been dimmed, and they are scared of facing death.  They are looking for a miracle that can give them hope and a chance to live.  Even though I do not claim to work miracles, I believe I have given many of my patients hope in helping them to deal with their cancer.  You see, Dr. Ohno, my mission in medicine is to give people hope. Even if I am  not able to cure them of their cancer, at least I want to give them hope."

  "Years ago I heard about a mountain that was being mined. The miners who worked there drank the water that came out of the mountain. Many of these miners were suffering from health problem; such as arthritis, hypertension, diabetes, kidney stones, to name a few.  After drinking this water over a period of time, they discovered that their health improved and some of their symptoms  had disappeared altogether.  When I heard  about this from some of the miners, i began to wonder if there would be benefits fro this water for my cancer patients. Even though I was skeptical, I decided it was at least worth trying."

  "I knew that my patients would try anything to cure their cancer.  You know the saying ; A drowning man will reach  for a straw. In other words, a dying man will try anything that will help him live. "

  Dr. Itami invited me to take a stroll with him to visit some of his patients.  One of the first patients Dr. Itami pointed out was a young man, 42 years old.  he had just been admitted into the hospital with liver cancer. Dr. Itami told me, "This man was told that he has only three months to live.  He is in the end-stages of liver cancer and the cancer has metastasized to his major organs. His doctor told him that there was nothing they could do to help him, and he should go to hospice.  His wife had heard from a  friend about our work here and how the water was helping to cure cancer in some patients." 

I looked at the man with his belly swollen like a sumo wrestler.  he was dreadfully thin and he looked very tired. I reached out my hand to shake his as I introduced myself, I asked him , "How are you feeling?"

 The patient said, " I have had no appetite even though my abdomen is growing larger from the swelling every day. But I have not given up because many of my friends have told me about Dr. Itami and his special water.  I am hoping that this water will cure my liver cancer.  This is my last chance.  I know I can trust you, Dr. Itami, because I have been told that  you are a true caring and compassionate person. I believe that you can help me!" 

Dr. Itami listened and looked down , smiling shyly. As we walked away, he explained to me , "I will start giving the water to him right away.  I hope that the water will give him new hope . But all I can do is my best and allow the water to work in his body.  The rest is up to God." 

As we continued to walk through the hospital ward, many patients smiled and waved to Dr. Itami. One patient in particular called him over, " Dr. Itami! Thank you so much for helping me! You have given me so much hope. I have never had another doctor care for me in the way you do.  I am so thankful that I came here so you could help me.  Even though I may die here, Dr. Itami, I will never regret it because I found a doctor I could trust!" 

I watched Dr. Itami as many patients sang his praises. Never once did he show an attitude of conceit.  He smiled to every patient, and he made everyone feel at ease.  I witnessed his humanitarian behavior.  He was really a special and unusual doctor.  he was not caught up in ego and greed. Rather, he was fueled by his mission to give hope to patients, who had nothing left to turn to but hope and prayer.

Something I felt was amazing with these patients.  I could understand how the woman who had been here for awhile talked about trusting Dr. Itami. But the liver cancer patient who had just been admitted to the hospital already trusted Dr. Itami. I wondered how it was that he was able to gain the trust of this patient so quickly, even before giving the patient any kind of care.

I remembered  when my mother had her breast cancer operation. i recalled how she told me that she trusted my brother Dr. Yoshioki because there was a special spiritual energy that worked between them.  I believed in this energy and knew that it was imperative for the healing process to be successful. 

" Dr. Itami, how do you go about gaining the complete trust of your patients? You seem to have a gift for gaining a patient's trust. How are you able to do this?"

"Dr. Ohno, when my patients come here, I am often times their very lasy hope. usually they have already seen several doctors and have gone through taking several different kinds of drugs and therapies.  Nothing has worked for them or they would not be here.  Most of these patients have lost their trust in doctors and the medical profession.  They see their lives slipping helpless away. When they first are admitted to the hospital, they do not know that i am any different from other doctors. because they need to gain hope and trust before they can begin to get better, I help them by the way I treat them." 

"The first thing I do is ask the patient to relax.  I acknowledge that I know they are scared and I talk with them in a caring way. I spend the first three days getting to know them as a person.  Iask them questions about their life, their family, what they do for a living, or I ask them to share with me what they want me to know about them.  It's not until after the third day that I begin to discuss their medical history with them.  By the time I begin to treat them medically, we have developed a relationship that is based upon the deepest human factors of trust and faith.  I continue to remind them to relax and I always listen to their fears and concerns.  Quickly, I am able to give the patient hope and in return, they are able to give me their trust. Both must work together, Dr. Ohno, for healing to occur."

From everything I was experiencing from talking with him and watching him with his patients, I truly liked and respected Dr. Itami.  He was everything I felt he was from my first impression. He was kind and compassionate; a true humanitarian doctor. I was very impressed with him. When we returned to his office, I asked him, "Dr. Itami, what is it about this water that makes it so special?"

"I'm not sure why the water works on diseases, but I do know the history of this water. Almost a billion years ago, there was an undersea volcano that erupted in this area.  When the volcano erupted it rose up out of the ocean and became a mountain. Following the volcano eruption there was a huge meteorite shower in this same area. The magnetite in the meteorites bonded with the limestone and granite of the mountain. This created a permanent magnetic mountain. 
"As water flows into the mountain, it is magnetized with the mountain's magnetic field. because of its magnetism, the water is able to attract 74 minerals that are in the mountain.  Some of these minerals are calcium, magnesium, selenium, and potassium, gold, silver, iron. What is equally important about this mineral water is the ionic organization of its structure.  The mineral water has an organized ionization that is unique. When this water is inside our bodies, it helps to create a healthy environment."  I was in complete agreement with Dr. Itami because he confirmed everything I knew about water and magnetism. 

Change Your Mind, Change Your Life

We are aware that we have an inner mind which is called ‘subliminal’, ‘subjective’, ‘id’, or the subconscious mind. Freud was one of the first who gave an insight into the functioning of the subconscious mind, linking it with the causes of various diseases. Dr Carl Jung, the Swiss psychiatrist, termed the spiritual part of the mind as super conscious which was directly connected to God.



The subconscious mind works like a computer. The subconscious mind inspires, guides and is a permanent storehouse of memory. Our mind remembers everything we see, feel and experience but to recall is difficult. It is said that the subconscious mind has a memory capacity of 70-100 trillion images because all our feelings, emotions and experiences are stored within us as an image or sound. Just as a computer digitizes everything, our brain too does the same.

Subconscious mind never sleeps, never rests and is always on duty because it controls our heartbeat, circulation of blood, regulates digestion, assimilates, harmonizes and eliminates. It controls all the vital processes and functions of our body and knows the answers to all our problems.

The objective mind learns from observation, experience, education and its great function is reasoning, whereas the subjective mind performs its highest function when our objective senses are in abeyance.

Thoughts are conveyed via the conscious mind to the subconscious by impression made in the brain cells like an image or a movie. It uses every bit of information gathered in our life time and draws all the energy and wisdom within us to bring solutions to our problems.

Suppose one had been bitten by a dog at the age of 10, one will continue to be scared of dogs for the rest of his/her life viewing it from the childhood experience. This is because our subconscious mind remembers the incident. The conscious mind may forget but the subconscious mind remembers in greatest detail unless the event is cancelled from the memory.

Subconscious mind is always awake whether one is asleep, subconscious, under drug or alcohol effect or under coma. One of its functions is to guard us from harm and danger, yet ironically it also causes illness and even self destruction.

Subconscious mind is infinite intelligence possessed by man beyond time and space, and it helps us to receive new thoughts, ideas, business plans, discoveries, inventions, and knowledge of nature.

Subconscious mind has the habit of taking everything literally.If we keep on thinking that we will never succeed in a particular venture, it is most likely that we will not because we are blocking all positive energy flow into the subconscious. This results only in negative energy getting attracted. Therefore, it is we who are responsible for our successes and failures in life.

If we have conveyed an erroneous concept to our subconscious mind the method of overcoming it is by repetition of constructive and harmonious thoughts, positive attitude and visualizing a happy ending rather than negative thoughts and suggestions.

Doctors have recognized this fact about the mind hence, however complex the operation maybe, they keep on encouraging the patients just before an operation.

During the post operative period visitors are not allowed near the patient because any negative suggestion given will go deep into the patient’s subconscious mind thereby damaging whatever had been done to rectify the patient’s state of heal through the operation.

It is very important that we do not use negative suggestions with growing children as it gets rooted in their subconscious mind and reflects later in his/her behavior. This effect can be seen in their behavior, hostility, anxiety, lack of confidence, etc. Whatever one believes in one’s mind is what we experience physically in the outside world. We have two sides of life objective-subjective, visible-invisible, thought-manifestation.

Even prayers and beliefs are positive signals which we give to our subconscious mind as something acceptable and true. The thought which is acceptable as true will automatically execute itself. When we believe we are healthy we will remain healthy as our subconscious mind keeps our immune system in perfect condition.

Source: All About Hypnosis: The Other Consciousness, by Tarun Mohan

Chapter One , The Rude Awakening

"Our painful experiences become the passages that open our hearts to empathy."

The Rude Awakening

"Please help me die, Dr Ohno!  Please help me die! I know you can help me, Dr. Ohno.  Please show mercy and help me ! Stop this pain I am going through ! I beg of you, Dr.Ohno, be merciful and help me die. send me to heaven and relieve me of my pain ! "

She stunned me with her outburst. I responded.  "I know you are in a state of intense pain and you are not able to think straight!  Please understand that what you ask of me is unthinkable and I cannot help you die. I am a doctor! "

She took deep and deliberate breaths.  It was obvious that she was in a tremendous amount of pain because of the anticancer medication in her body system.  I wondered if it was the pain that had taken over her senses, affecting her sanity. But her eyes told me that she was not insane, quite the opposite. In fact, she was quite rational, and her intention was very clear. 

"Dr. Ohno, please understand, I am asking you to do this out of mercy for me!  I am asking the 'unthinkable' because you are my doctor , and I trust that you will help me.  If you were not my doctor, and if I felt you did not care for me, I would never think of requesting such a thing.
"I have been waiting for the right time to approach you.  I have been praying to God to give me the chance to talk to you. It is at this moment that I am telling you that I have decided to die. I have hesitated because I knew, of course, how you would react to my request to die.  Your reaction is not a surprise to me. I would not have requested you to react in any other way !"

She looked at me carefully and calmly.  She as almost too calm. She had surrendered herself totally to this decision to die. There was no fear in her voice or in her eyes.  She got up out of her bed and closed the door quietly,  wanting privacy in the room so no one else would hear our conversation. 

"Dr. Ohno, I have asked you before to stop giving me the anticancer drug ! The side effects are to strong and I know you don't want to watch me suffer 1 Every time you inject me with this drug, I know you, too , are suffering as you watch me suffer.
"I have lost over 25 pounds since I have been here. Iweighed 100 pounds when I was first admitted here and now I weigh only 75 pounds. Look at me !  I look like a living skeleton! Nobody recognizes me anymore, because I am only a shadow of the person I used to be! 
"Putting food into my mouth is a nightmare because I know I will vomit up everything I eat .  When there is no food in my stomach, then I experience the dry heaves.  Right now I am also suffering from bleeding of my gums. It looks like I never clean or brush my teeth."

Her eyes were filling with tears again.  She suddenly held her hand out from underneath her bed sheet and said, "Look! Look at my finger!" When she showed me her finger, I noticed that the fingernail had fallen off and the skin under the nail had turned black. 

"Look at my finger.  it looks like a dead person's!" She waved her finger in front of me to see. Sobbing, she lifted off her wig . "My hair has completely fallen out! I am completely bald!  I can tolerate my hair loss, but I have no energy left to stand the continuous nausea and vomiting and chills !  The chills that take over my body after you inject me with the anticancer drug are terrible. It doesn't matter how many blankets I use to cover myself with, the chills are so intense that nothing makes me warm ! 
"After the chills subside, I have another severe attack of abdominal pain. The pain is so strong that I have to take another drug to ease the pain. After the abdominal cramps, I can't move my arms or legs.  When I go to pick up something , I have no feeling. Even if I prick myself with a needle, I am numb and feel nothing. After the paralysis, I have nausea again with more vomiting. 
"Dr. Ohno, even though I am a strong and patient person, I cannot tolerate these strong side effects.  I am reaching the end of my limit ! Dr. Ohno, I beg you, please stop giving me the anticancer drug! I have experience strong side effects before from anticancer drugs, but this new anticancer drugs, but this new anticancer drug has worse side effects.  They are unbearable for me to tolerate.  I know I do not have the strength to handle the pain anymore!"

Her words lingered in the room, hovering over me like a thick, dark cloud. It was very clear that she was nearing the end of her pain tolerance.  She was getting weaker every time I saw her. Her voice was very strained now. Simple conversation was very difficult for her.  But she found energy to make an appeal to me. 

I sat there in the room with her, struggling for something to say.  At that moment, there was nothing I could tell her, no words I could find to say to her , to give her any comfort. Although I felt compassion for her, a part of me wanted to get up and leave the room. I wanted to process what was happening, not only to her, but to me as well.  Just as  I thought of leaving the room, she instinctively reached over and grabbed my hand.  I remember how the strength in her frail and lifeless hand amazed me.  I felt the inner strength of her soul at that moment.  As I hesitated, searching for a way to bring comfort to her, she continued . . .

"Dr. Ohno . . . from the first time I met you, and looked into your caring eyes, I knew you were a person who would understand.  I sensed that you were completely different from the other doctors who had treated me before. I felt this way because I watched how truly sincere and empathic you were with your patients. 
"The other doctors have always ignored me while I have struggled with the agony of my pain. But your eyes have always shown me your genuine concern.  I have never found another doctor who has demonstrated compassion the way you do. 
"I am aware that you do not agree with the hospital professor and you want to stop giving me the anticancer drug. I know that you suffer from being embarrassed about this situation and that you are deeply troubled because of your disagreement with the professor on how I should be treated.  I know that if it were up to you, you would be taking care of me in a completely different way."

Again, het statement caught me totally by surprise , I responded, "What?" I suddenly raised my voice to her. "How do you know such things? Who has spoken to you about this?"

She reached over and gently patted my hand.  It seemed so strange to watch her comfort me while I was searching for a way to bring comfort to her. Then she said, " No one has had to tell me anything.  I know of your personal struggle because your face is always pale and drawn.  I have been watching you and I have recognized your personal battle.  Your work is depressing and you are aging and looking older and tired from the struggle."

She was talking to me with concern in her voice as though I were her son.  Her insights were amazingly accurate.  She stopped and took a sip of tea.  During the silence,  I started thinking about what she had just said.

It was true that I was struggling and my physical state was showing the fatigue from my internal battle.  I was not sleeping well. I would not go to bed until after 1:00 in the morning every night/early morning. As tired as I was, I would lie in my bed unable to sleep. Since I could not sleep,  I would usually get up and sit at my desk.  I would think about her and if there were possibly different ways of helping her.  I often thought to myself , "Why did I become a doctor?"

When I first became a doctor, I thought that I would find ways to help my patients. But instead of a healer, I felt more like a murderer. i was aware that the struggle would continue for me if I didn't find a better way to help my patients.  I realized that I must decide whether I could continue being a doctor.  I knew I would not remain the kind of doctor who could not effectively care for his patients.  Nearly every night I would lose sleep over  my preoccupation with this concern.  During the day, my eyes were red and weary from lack of proper sleep, and I was being emotionally drained. 

She finished her tea and continued, "Since I have been here, I have become very fond of you because you remind me of my son.  I always think to myself that if I die, Dr. Ohno will be with me at my deathbed.  This thought gives me a feeling of comfort. 

"I have tried my best to be a good patient. I have never complained or refused your help because I have believed in you with all of my being.  I have trusted you with my life.  However,  I cannot tolerate taking this new anticancer drug anymore, because the side effects are too strong for me to handle ."

She held my hands and looked directly into my eyes. then she continued to speak . . . . .
"I have talked to my family about my decision to ask you to help me die.  I have made them promise me that they will not see you or bother you after my death.  I am trying to make this easy for you to do. All I want you to do is to put another drug in the tube.  That is all you have to do and then walk away.  or, you can  just leave the drug on the table and I will pick it up and swallow it. You can leave the room and leave me to die in peace and my  pain will be over.  If you are a humanitarian doctor, you will obey your patient's last wish.  You are the only doctor who can help me!  My family will not blame you ; they will be appreciative because they know of my wish to die. 

"Please sent me to heaven right now! "Please, Dr. Ohno, please send me to heaven!"

She was convulsing and weeping.  her frail and lifeless body shook with her sobs.  I immediately answered, "I cannot help you die! I am a doctor, not a murderer! I have taken an oath to help keep people alive.  I know you are in a tremendous amount  of pain, but I cannot help you die!

"Please don't ask me again! I cannot help you. Not in that way!"

A part of me died that day, watching this woman collapsing in sobs and begging me to release her from her misery.  This incident I just described happened shortly after I graduated from medical school and was interning in Orthopedics at the University of Osaka, in Osaka, Japan. When I first met her, she was a 62-year-old breast cancer patient, being treated in the outpatient clinic.  I saw her husband first and I thought he was my patient because he looked as though he had no energy, and he was so thin.

The nurse accompanied the couple into the examination room. When they entered the room I realized that I had misunderstood who the real patient was.  I asked her to give me a brief description of her medical history and she began, 

"I was found to have breast cancer five years ago.  I was operated on at a different hospital and at first, it seemed that the operation had been successful and that all the cancer had been removed. However, one year after the  operation, the cancer reappeared again, so I was put on the anticancer drug.  The anticancer drug worked for awhile, but then the cancer reappeared.

"The last doctor I had did not care about terminally ill cancer patients.  The doctor and his staff encouraged me to be discharged from the hospital and they suggested that I go to a hospice.  I o not want to go hospice because I have not lost my will to live.  I have decided to fight the cancer and fight for my life!

"This is why I have come to your hospital."

As she talked about the details of her breast cancer, her X-rays were delivered to the examination room.  As I reviewed her x-rays, I was shocked to see that the cancer had metastasized to her pelvis and to her brain.  I thought to myself, it is impossible to help her at this stage of the cancer. Al she can do now is try to be as comfortable as possible and wait for her inevitable death. 

Then I spoke to her as honestly as I could. "Your cancer has already metastasized to your pelvis bone.  And it has als metastasized to your brain.
"Unfortunately, i am also recommending that you go to the hospice because we can do nothing for you now.  It is too late to try alternative measures because your cancer has already spread to the extent that there is no therapy that can help you at the stage of your cancer. The damage is irreversible.
"I realize this sounds cruel to you, but the more chemotherapy you are given, the sooner you will die.  You see,the anticancer drug kills not only cancer cells in your body , but destroys even healthy cells. It cannot distinguish between a cancerous cell and a healthy cell.  As a result healthy cells are destroyed.  Your body loses its immune ability and death results soon afterward.

"The anticancer drug is generally successful when only a small part of the body has been affected by cancer.  But your case isa completely different situation because the cancer has spread throughout your body.
"I don't recommend chemotherapy because it is too hard on patients. The side effects are too strong and counteract what the chemotherapy is designed to do.  I suggest that you should consider an alternative measure."

Objecting to my recommendations, she said, "It doesn't matter to me what the painful side effects are from the anticancer drug, because I have to get well so that I can take care of my husband! That is why I will keep trying to fight the cancer !

"Please admit me right now so that you can begin to help me!  If I go to the hospice, then I am surrendering myself to death.  I refuse to surrender my life until I know within my heart that I have no choice!"

"I know how difficult this must be for you and I do understand how you must feel, but right now our hospital is full. Even if there was something we could do for you, we don't have a bed for you at this time.  Please understand that although I wish I could , there is nothing that I can do to help you.  I am suggesting that you go home."

"No! I can't go home ! My husband is not healthy. He is very weak and I need to look after him.  If something were to happen to me, he would surely die very soon because he is not able to care for himself.
"Please, Dr. Ohno, admit me into the hospital now ! Please find a way, any way, to cure my cancer!"

The scene in the clinic was a heartbreaking one. This sweet and loving couple had obviously been together and devoted to one another for many years.  Although she was literally dying from the cancer that had taken over her body, she was more concerned in her husband and her responsibility to take care of him. I so desperately wanted to be able to give them both some kind of hope.  But the facts were on the X-rays, and there wasn't anything I could do at this point in time to help her.

"As I have already told you, the hospital is full. If you decide you want to come back, you will need to wait until we have the room to admit you."

"You don't understand, Dr. Ohno ! I don't have time ! I only have now and I need a miracle ! Please reconsider and admit me ! Can't you make a special provision for me, because I am an end-stage cancer patient?"

At that moment, the hospital medical professor, who was my superior, stepped into the examination room and interrupted the conversation, "Dr. Ohno, I will take care of this patient.  I will be able to help her. You should take care of another patient."

He continue, " I am sorry to interrupt your conversation. let me introduce myself, I am the main professor of the hospital. My name is Doctor 'A'. 
"I have had the opportunity to look at your X-rays. Because  your cancer has metastasized to you pelvic bone and to your brain, I agree with Dr. Ohno that it is not going to be easy at tis stage of your cancer.  The cure rate is only five percent for end-stage cancer, and unfortunately in you case, I don't see any hope."

He watched her face intently.  The colour in her face turned completely pale.  He waited for the impact of the news for her chances of survival to set in.  Once he saw the couple's reaction and how discourage she and her husband were, he then continued, " I think I can save you with a new drug I have developed.
"This new drug only destroys the cancer cells and it has no side effects, based upon animal testing.  It is true that this drug is in the experimental stages, but the data from the testing has  shown that there is a definite decline in the cancer, as well as showing not to have any side effects. I can offer you this opportunity for a possible cure for your cancer!
"This new anticancer drug had never been used in another hospital. If more cancer patients knew about this special drug, the response would be tremendous!  You are very fortunate that you have come to our hospital and met me."

The professor's words were totally unexpected by her.  her expression changed from one of despair to an expression of hope. She and her husband began to cry with tears of joy and relief. 

She grasped the professor's hand and said, "Oh, thank you so very much! I never expected a miracle like this from your hospital! You have given me hope again!"

The couple held each other and cried from the good news. The scene touched everyone in the room.  The professor was very pleased with himself.  As I watched this dramatic scene, it seemed as though I were watching a scene out of a movie.  However, despite the deep emotion of the event that had just taken place, I felt completely separated from the joy that everyone else was experiencing. I knew that the anticancer drug the professor was talking about absolutely had very strong side effects. 

I wondered why the professor insisted on using the anticancer drug on this woman.  I internally questioned his decision and I felt very uncomfortable for this patient because I suspected that his recommendation was not in the patient's best interest.

This was the first of what was to prove to be many rude awakenings for me. After years of medical school, of learning how to help people, I was now coming face to face with the grim reality of obeying a hospital staff professor, who was testing patients as though they were experimental animals.  There was no empathy for people who were terminally ill.  I wanted desperately to disagree with the professor, but I was only an intern in this hospital.

The Japanese medical system is very conservative.  The professors on staff are upheld as though they were royalty , and the interns are looked upon as nothing more than slaves.  I knew if I said anything to question him I would probably be fired on the spot. 

The professor ordered the breast cancer patient to be admitted into our hospital.  Immediately after being admitted, she received the 'new' anticancer drug twice a week.  Then a course of agony began for this patient.  The new anticancer drug had devastating side effects.  It took hold of its victim with a force so intense that the agony of the pain was unbearable.

"Please stop giving me this drug, Dr. Ohno, I beg of you! Please help to take the pain in my stomach away! The professor told me that there would be no side effects from this drug and I am in agony !"

"Please stop this pain! Please stop it!"

The tragedy of this scene would repeat itself over and over , becoming my ongoing personal nightmare.  The anticancer drug was given to the patient, and after each injection her life energy to withstand the trauma declined.  Even though I knew I was not responsible for causing her pain,  I was in fact the doctor who administered the injection.  I watched as other interns around me were able to go about their daily routine.  I noticed that they were able to set themselves apart from the pain their patients were experiencing.  However, this was impossible for me to do.

I felt so much empathy for my patients that it was very difficult for me to stand by and do nothing, especially when I knew in my heart that some of these patients were not receiving the right kind of care.  But again, I kept reminding myself that I was only an intern and perhaps this was something I needed to work through so that I could eventually become the kind of doctor I knew I could be.  I was determined to become a doctor who healed people and a doctor who was able to make a positive change in people's lives. 

Dr. Yoshitaka Ohno,
Intern.